unsettledness

it's something we all face at some point, isn't it?

I've noticed it more and more at this stage in my life. This stage where there seems to be no sense of permanence, no settled-ness.

And I'm not going to lie, I hate it. I hate feeling like I don't really have a "place". I hate feeling like I'm in limbo, just waiting, transitioning.

I've been told multiple times that this stage is the stage of transition, that I should enjoy NOT having those responsibilities of being settled. And I probably should, well I know that I should...but I'm just so accustomed to being in a certain place and having a direction. It's just so weird to not feel that way.

This is something I've been struggling to find peace in, to acknowledge that this is the way that it's going to be and that I need to embrace God's plan for me, especially at this time when my life seems so hectic and temporary. I'm trying to be content in the knowledge that God's purpose for me may not be revealed immediately. I'm working to change my perception of this stage, from aimless wandering to purposeful formation of who I am.

Much much easier said than done, huh?